sweaters wear well in winter

sweaters wear well in winter
Originally uploaded by marinkel.

i just came across this photo again when i opened my story that i need to finish. for some reason i felt this illustrated my little tale though it is about a young girl and her wicked doll. and i got the feeling that i really haven't done anything better than this picture since. and maybe it's not even anyone's favorite or you don't think it's at all good, but to me it expresses everything that i am. and then i read the caption and i remembered how i had quit my blog so not to hurt someone's feelings and i was feeling a little lost without it. so i began posting more and more on flickr. it's strange how one can get nostalgic for some not so distant time when i do remember i wasn't all that happy then. but the sadness fades and the picture remains. a pretty black and white. a loungy woman in a cozy sweater in a little appartment, not knowing what awaits her. if only i could have that nostalgia for this very moment, i wouldn't need to pine for it in a few months. love this very second as if it were a year from now. what is so wondrous about the past anyway? things weren't any better then.

but what remains is this photograph. and my feeling of having lost something. what am i worried about? someone always returns it to me. whatever i lose, i cannot leave it behind. something always reminds me.